The surge of adrenaline, the thumping beat of your heart in your chest as if it is about to burst free from your rib cage, the cold sweat, the fumbling on the keyboard...........hit [ENTER].........done, no turning back, thats it committed now!
I've faced a few tricky situations in my relatively short life time, some I would rather have not been in and others that I relished.........but all that have defined who I am. But nothing compares to the feeling of being so close, and yet so far (257miles on foot to be precise) away from what was only a dream 2 years ago.
In October 2011 I jumped. I said something out loud to which my wife said 'Do it'. So I did.....I pressed [ENTER] not just once, but 3 times.........and set the wheels in motion for 2012 to be a life changer!
And then, for some unexplained reason, I did it again in October 2012......I hit [ENTER] 4 times......
And what did I learn.........that pressing [ENTER] more times is a jump.......a leap of faith in myself (and whether my wife and daughters have enough patience).....to test myself and go where I never thought I could go.
With 2013 coming to a close, I've hit [ENTER] a few more times........in fact more than enough to earn the 7 points needed to qualify for the 2015 Ultra Trail Mont Blanc............the dream!
All things in life worth having need to be qualified for.....you earn them by going further and pushing yourself harder. The more you do, the more you get.
All the time, you have to keep asking yourself 'Is the promise worth the price?' because if it isn't, when it comes time to pay, you'll be lacking.
When we start out in life, we don't know how to walk, talk or even feed ourselves.......yet as adults we expect to be able to make massive changes and have things tomorrow that we haven't earned. We haven't paid the price for them......we didn't qualify!
So here I am, 12 months away from qualifying for the right to attempt to fulfil a dream........that's right, I have to qualify just to attempt my dream....no guarantees!
Is the promise worth the price? Damn right it is! In one way, I'm half the man I was when I started out.......in other ways I have grown bigger.
But above all else, this is no longer my personal journey. There are others sharing this path....some occasionally, some frequently and 3 people every single second of every single day of every single week of every single month. My wife and 2 daughters.
Is the promise worth the price? It has to be. Otherwise the price paid so far is a debt that cannot be repaid!
It doesn't matter how fast you go, as long as you have forward momentum, you'll get to your destination at some point!
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